This is my strive for being pretty and thin like a feather or rail. Either one.(which for me = perfection) It is my 365 project and I think that if you want to change yourself to be happy, then you should do whatever makes you happy. These are my opinions and views.
UGW: 86 =)
Sitting in my car trying to figure things out. Where is my epiphany? Does it have to be raining for one to come? Hope not the sky is so clear.
Had someone tell me all my flaws and pointed out everything they dislike about me and my appearance. It’s great to know I’m not the only one that dislikes me.
Well I’ve been making some progress. I’m happy-ish. Actually I’m truly happy with my bf. He makes me feel special. But I can’t help thinking of the pretty girls he has dated, which makes me take three steps back and go back to the unhealthy ways. I’ve been trying to eat when I’m with him. Which is so awkward I have such a horrible relationship with food. I’m starting to have more calories which scares me. I’m tired of the progress. But I love him very much. This sucks .
So today I just turned 22, and I’m not prepared for the bday dinners or lunches. All the cakes and surprise cookie is really not helping the not binging plan.
I don’t care about being great anymore I just want to be good enough.
What’s so bad about giving up, when there is no need to go on?